Sunday, September 17, 2017

question.

training loss 4.1

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Saturday, September 16, 2017

hateful.

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Sunday, September 10, 2017

Deep writing "love"

.\sample.py --prime "love" -n 100 --pick 2 --width 4

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.\sample.py --pick 2 --width 4 > 2017-09-10beam-search01.txt

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.\sample.py --prime "I" -n 100 > 2017-09-10I.txt

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.\sample.py --prime "vulnerable"  > 2017-09-10I-02.txt

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.\sample.py --prime "don't" --pick 2 --width 3 > 2017-09-10dont-03.txt

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.\sample.py --prime "don't"  > 2017-09-10dont-04.txt

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.\sample.py --prime "a girl to be saved from" > 2017-09-10girl05.txt

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Saturday, September 2, 2017

Deepwriting 03 and 04

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Deep writing 01 and 02

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Monday, August 28, 2017

a: a novel, p 1

https://twitter.com/derekbeaulieu/status/897104179830730752

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Tuesday, August 22, 2017

Except come a line focus on which the end

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I lift my love people floor.
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Whatever into you should not worth it feel like decent about before
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And I will day.  Someone can’t stopping in part or

Sunday, August 20, 2017

37+1 lines

  1. Who can remember pain once it’s over? All that remains of it is a shadow, not in the mind even, in the flesh. Pain marks you, but too deep to see.
  2. So here’s my question: when you lose the most important person to you in the entire world, where is all the love – love you never even knew you were capable of – supposed to go?
  3. Perhaps if you can accept the pain that almost kills you, you can use it, you can become better.
  4. As far as I could see,
  5. life demanded skills I didn't have.
  6. I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naïve or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman.
  7. don't call me beautiful
  8. I don't case
  9. call me intelligent
  10. tell me my laugh is
  11. contagious
  12. that I made you smile
  13. tell me
  14. I
  15. have something to offer
  16. You know what you deserve? You deserve so
  17. much better. So many things have happened to
  18. you whether its a bad break up, family issues,
  19. friends, whatever it is.. you pulled through. You
  20. have made it this far and I'm proud of you. You
  21. truly deserve the world and since no one can give
  22. you that now, find someone that will, apologize,
  23. forgive but don't forget, find new friends. Ones
  24. that make plans with you and free their time to
  25. give you attention. You deserve all good things
  26. and don't for a second think you're not worth it
  27. because you remind me of the sun, you hide away
  28. but always come back even more beautiful than
  29. before.
  30. Youth mocks even downtown. Erika jeers back loudly. Anything they can do, she can do better. She’s been doing it longer.
  31. If I had my way we’d sleep every night all wrapped around each other like hibernating rattlesnakes.
  32. No matter how good you are
  33. you can always be replaced
  34. I learn a good deal by merely observing you,
  35. And letting you talk as long as you please,
  36. And taking note of what you do not say.
  37. I lift the lid to my box of phantoms, and lay another in
  38. I was very fond of you, but now I’m so, so tired. I’m not happy to go, but one needn’t be happy to make another start.

good things, courage, Pain marks, good deal, love, entire world, new friends, strength, important person, mind, night, family issues, plans, time, lid, box of phantoms, life demanded skills, deeper instinct, enormous demands, innocent, hibernating rattlesnakes, think, Youth mocks, Erika jeers, shadow, flesh, way, start, toughness, woman, matter, question, laugh, Ones, attention, note
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Friday, August 11, 2017

I barely remember your face, your thrusts

I barely remember your face, your thrusts.
I’m in literature it took me It was tragic and it is so guarded and an end.
A poem has a beginning, a little bit with someone.
If they don’t, they never were.
Home after long after that it’s just want to be perfect, you walked away from me.
While it is temporal.
A poem has a beginning, a smile for if they were always yours.
If that’s wrong of me, so guarded and as nurturing as clutter before meeting you.
And I wish I felt the agony was seeing how easily you don’t have to be first.
I want to be self-conscious about expressing their soul.
This world is as if they return, they were more honest.
I never for one second stopped wanting you hoped or what's holding you can be first.
I want to keep safe.
You’re losing what you’re hanging onto to wonder why you together.
I just want to be perfect, you don’t have to the words.
You can only hold a light at the end A work of goodbye.
I just want to be self-conscious about you’ll look back to be self-conscious about you’ll look back to be first.
I would say it feels like drowning.
And I wish I would say it is warm and maybe unattainable, and it is a light at the worst time as clutter before meeting you.
And now that you’re comfortable with, you’re losing what you’re hanging onto to be perfect, you together.
I had never for one second stopped wanting you can either focus on what's tearing you don’t have to wonder why you don’t have to be self-conscious about you’ll look back to wonder why you walked away from me.
While it suffocates me.
The entire breakup was not the sting of whatever darkness you together.
I fall in love with you’re losing what you’re hanging onto to come first I know that’s selfish, and painful.
But I just want to wonder why you apart or what's holding you walked away from me.
While it suffocates me.
The entire breakup was not the visual arts is warm and turn out so guarded and as nurturing as if everything will fall in love somebody, let them go, for so long, after long silence.
Listen to cry.
As I just want to be it.
I’ll be good.
Sometimes life has edges.
But the peak of this emotion is temporal.
A poem has edges.
But no matter how it suffocates me.
The weight of me makes a little bit with anyone who shows me If you can be good.
Sometimes life has a beginning, a beginning, a cruel sense they were ...

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Saturday, August 5, 2017

Something seemed to be hovering over me

Something seemed to be hovering over me, rousing me, exciting me, and making me restless. Misery and spite seemed surging up in me again and seeking an outlet.
I’m terrified of someone falling in love with me, because I’ve been told time and time again I’m not good enough. I just don’t want to disappoint.
Some cause happiness wherever they go; others whenever they go.
I love that feeling when someone shows genuine interest in you. Like wanting to know every little detail and blemish, what a beautiful thing.
People do not die from suicide; they die from sadness.
You promised me the world, promised me you’d never leave me again. But you are gone now. You left again. I waited for your return, but deep down I knew you wouldn’t come back.
There will come a time when you believe everything is finished. Yet that will be the beginning.
Some things
go your way.
Some things
go away.
Private, intimate, sensate, I continued to dwell intact within an illusion.
Most times, it's just a lot easier
not to let the world know
what's wrong.
I didn’t know what to call it, what was happening between us, but I liked it. It felt silly and fragile and good.
A true spiritual teacher does not have anything to teach in the conventional sense of the word, does not have anything to give or add to you, such as new information, beliefs, or rules of conduct. The only function of such a teacher is to help you remove that which separates you from the truth of who you already are and what you already know in the depth of your being.
You need to learn to relax or the
stress will fucking kill you before
the thing that is supposed to kill
you gets the chance
Teach me happy; I’ll teach you love.
Pain doesn’t just show up in our lives for no reason. It’s a sign that something in our life needs to change.
Maybe we are too different, but if the sun and the moon still love each other why can’t we?
To everything I've ever lost:
Thank you for setting me free.
How marvelous books are, crossing worlds and centuries, defeating ignorance and, finally, cruel time itself.
he worst mistake that you can make,
is to walk away from the person who
actually stood there and waited for you.
Morning without you is a dwindled dawn.
There are two questions
a man must ask himself:
The first is Where am I going?
and the second is Who will go
with me? If you ever get
these questions in the wrong
order you are in trouble.
The invariable mark of wisdom is to see the miraculous in the common.
Being together is the miracle, being together and caring. Sleeping together, feet touching, legs touching. Being asleep and together.
The sign of intelligence is that
you are constantly wondering.
Idiots are always dead sure about
every damn thing they are
doing in their life.
But let nobody kid himself: spiritual devotion to a popular teacher with an ambiguous dogma is merely a method of making experience more tolerable, not a method of understanding experience or even of accurately describing it.

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Monday, July 31, 2017

Body is, from the great society, the tribe, the ancestors, the family, the culture, the earth

We are undeniably embodied biography, because the body is where we sexually, erotize and from where we love. Body is, from the great society, the tribe, the ancestors, the family, the culture, the earth ... even the small neurons, the bloodstream, the flesh, the nerves ...
Thoughts (e.g., "I cannot
connect with anyone and
will always be alone." )
Behaviors (e.g.,
isolating, watching
television, overeating,
using substances)
Feelings (e.g., sadness,
loneliness, angry at self)
You get the girl everyone want and forget she the girl everyone want.
I think my life is of great
importance, but I also
think it is meaningless.
Paradoxically, the ability to be alone is the condition for the ability to love.
Just make up your mind to write every single day. And don’t throw anything out. It might come in handy later.
All the glamour, and the trauma,
And the fucking melodrama
There is, I assure you, a medical art for the soul. It is philosophy, whose aid need not be sought, as in bodily diseases, from outside ourselves. We must endeavor with all our resources and strength to become capable of doctoring ourselves.
To hell with them.
Nothing hunts if you don't let it.
Stop wars
I'm scared

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Monday, July 24, 2017

sir

king twit is taking down everyone in this mornings twit rampage
We should meet in another life, we should meet in air, me and you.
So another condition for the zipless fuck was brevity. And anonymity made it even better.
But things work out, you know. Even if it doesn’t feel OK for a long time, or even if it feels like things will never be OK again, (things) work out in the end.
Do you know any poems about regeneration/rebirth, something like that?
Violence solves everything, you idiot, look at the history of the world. Any situation they have, they dick around with it for a while, then they bring in violence. That’s the whole reason they have scientists, to make violence more violent.
I overcame myself, the sufferer; I carried my own ashes to the mountains; I invented a brighter flame for myself.
The ache for home lives in all of us. The safe place where we can go as we are and not be questioned.
You intoxicated me. It was just as though you were making me love you by some invisible force.
Oh, honey, be careful if his love is as deep as the ocean, for there are many rotten corpses on its bottom.
I wish I could be with you
now and cuddle and hold
you tight in my arms
I remember every
word you told me.
I can't stop
thinking about it.
Why spend your life on family and children, if you can travel and live for yourself.
Whatever impacts have cratered you, if you want forgiveness your only recourse is liftoff. Space looks different from the ground.
held on too warm
in june humid night
our palms sweating
now i see a light shining through
the lattice of their shadows
and i know it is my madness
come to claim me.
Sometimes I’m turned on
by my own death.
She was the kind of person who never made promises, because she knew she would always break them.
I am only responsible for my own heart, you offered yours up for the smashing my darling. Only a fool would give out such a vital organ.
The darkness inside your head is something your imagination fills with stories that have nothing to do with the real darkness around you.
Life is about doing things that don’t suck with people who don’t suck.
Its just weird because I
grew up thinking that
people waited until they
were 21 to drink, couples
waited until they were
married to have sex and
people didnt do drugs. I
thought you would always
end up marrying your
soulmate and I thought
your friends were your
friends and they would
never leave your side and
everyone you said "l love
you" to would say it back.
It's just crazy how you
grow up with all this love
and hope in your heart and
then youre thrown into
what you think is a twisted
world but it's actually just
life and you gotta live it
Why you desire to wipe out the past is of more significance than knowing how to wipe it out. The intention with which you approach the problem is more important than knowing what to do about it.
We’re all on the brink of despair, all we can do is look each other in the face, keep each other company, joke a little…
Don’t you agree?
This place has only three exits, sir: Madness, and Death.
We’ve got to live, no matter how many skies have fallen.
You loved me the other day. You wanted me to sit beside you in the dark. Didn’t I feel it- didn’t I know? There’s something between us- a sort of pull. Something you always do to me and I to you.
When you love people, you want what’s best for them, and sometimes what’s best for them isn’t you.
And yet you are all that you have, so you must be enough. There is no other way.
Nature does nothing uselessly.
Are your friendships all clothing optional?
Life is clothing optional.

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